I am redeemed...in Christ
"The LORD redeems his servants; no one will be condemned who takes refuge in Him." Ps34:22
I felt so condemned...so unworthy of everything good.... so uncapable for being an angel to those I love.... i could not turn back the clock to prevent things from happening...if i can...i wanna be the perfect angel....
the many thoughts flooded my mind...i have never felt so condemned before! i know its the devil at work and i can literally see an angel in a tug of war with the devil, with my heart in the middle. i felt suffocated by the tugging, i prayed for a deep sleep and if possible, God, take me...
a deep sleep did happen, but i am not in heaven. I could no longer remember the result of the tug of war. needless to say, my God triumphs. I don't feel as bad though a tinge of unworthiness still remains. I flipped the bible to Psalm 34:22.... I know i have been redeemed and no one has the right to condemn me, including myself. its hard to think of it that way, but i know God will always comfort me and i will definitely try.
The devil always makes use of what happened to condemn us, making us feel lowly of ourselves. God wants to break the bondage and He wants us to be able to step out of the shadow. That's precisely why He came seeking for us, the lost and the confused. We can never erase that which had happened...but we can look towards the light to know that God who loves us more than anyone will never put us down, that leaves no other people the right to do so too... I truly thank God for loving me so much...
I felt so condemned...so unworthy of everything good.... so uncapable for being an angel to those I love.... i could not turn back the clock to prevent things from happening...if i can...i wanna be the perfect angel....
the many thoughts flooded my mind...i have never felt so condemned before! i know its the devil at work and i can literally see an angel in a tug of war with the devil, with my heart in the middle. i felt suffocated by the tugging, i prayed for a deep sleep and if possible, God, take me...
a deep sleep did happen, but i am not in heaven. I could no longer remember the result of the tug of war. needless to say, my God triumphs. I don't feel as bad though a tinge of unworthiness still remains. I flipped the bible to Psalm 34:22.... I know i have been redeemed and no one has the right to condemn me, including myself. its hard to think of it that way, but i know God will always comfort me and i will definitely try.
The devil always makes use of what happened to condemn us, making us feel lowly of ourselves. God wants to break the bondage and He wants us to be able to step out of the shadow. That's precisely why He came seeking for us, the lost and the confused. We can never erase that which had happened...but we can look towards the light to know that God who loves us more than anyone will never put us down, that leaves no other people the right to do so too... I truly thank God for loving me so much...
2 Comments:
Jia you, and dun give up my dear. Things may seem difficult, even beyond our control, but I have no doubt things will just work out fine.Continue to show your love for your parents, and I believe they can be won over.
I always believe the miracle is in the House. So, I know you will be the one that can pray for the miracle to come. I am praying with you. Bro KT is praying with you. Everyone is. :) Just keep trying, ok? :)
Meditate on John 3:17 and Romans 8:1
Let not your heart be troubled, my beloved sister in Christ.
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